Tuesday, August 21, 2012

life update.


In the ICU with Shelby + Dil.

On June 13, 2012, I was in a serious car accident that should have killed me. I tried to miss hitting an animal, over corrected and my back axle snapped. I lost control of my blazer and slide sideways over a driveway. After going air born, my blazer landed on it's top, breaking my back, then rolled again. I stopped rolling with my blazer on it's top. I laid upside in my blazer, unable to get out because the steering wheel was smashed into my legs. At this point, I didn't know I was hurt. I finally got someone to stop, and an ambulance was called. After cutting the driver door of my blazer off and pulling me out, After paramedics realized how serious my injuries were, I was air lifted to a trauma hospital. I broke my back at T12, which damaged my spinal cord. I had broke a few ribs, hurt my shoulder and had a lung that had collapsed. I had a chest tube put in my side to help with my lung, and spent several hours in surgery to repair my back. My injury has left my without use of my lower half. However, my toes did start moving the other day! Recovery will take a while but I have hopes of being able to walk again.


While this seems like it may be the worst of luck, I am so very greatful for what happened. My accident taught me a lot of things. Yes, I probably should have never been given an Illinois driving license, but it showed me how thankful I need to be for things in life. I should never take a single thing for granted. Right now, I can't walk. I have to have help for things I did so easily before. I've gotten a lot stronger, so it's getting easier but I never would have thought to be thankful for being able to walk, or even putting my pants on. I have learned that life is precious and you have to make the most of it. I took so many things for granted and this accident opened my eyes to that. If someone would have told me three months ago I would be paralyzed because of a car accident, I probably would have laughed in their face. Through this I have found strength in myself and through Christ. It also changed my outlook on life. Instead of letting little things get to me, I need to focus on the things in life I do have. I am working hard to build relationships with people I care about and even cutting ties with people who aren't good for me anymore.




Obviously my tire didn't end up in the front seat, but you can see where the roof just missed caving in on me.



Dillion and I broke up, too. Which has been a lot harder on me then I really want to admit. He was there the night I wrecked and stayed with me a lot. Things just kinda..fell apart. It's sad because now we don't even talk. I don't understand how you can be so close to someone and then act like you never knew them the next day. I'm not saying he is a bad guy, because he isn't. He's actually really sweet, it's just tough timing. Let's be honest, dude's an asshole. It's better I be a little bit selfish & focus on myself now. I have a huge road to recovery ahead of me and I have to make sure I do what's best for me.


I have a lot of things to be thankful for though. I am so glad I made it through my accident alive and without any head injuries. Not only that but I am super excited about is that my big sister got a call on Monday that she will be doing hair for New York Fashion Week. That's right, the sister who used to burn my forehead trying to curl my bangs is going to be working in New York. Seriously so stoked for you. She's a huge role model and a great example of how hard work pays off. She makes me proud. <3


The last two months have been a roller coaster. There's days where I feel on top of the world, and days where it takes all I have not to lay in bed and cry all day. I have so much faith in Christ right now to pull me through this, though. I have gained a better relationship with my family and that's something I take very seriously. I don't know where I would be without the support of my family and my best friend.

My first day of standing. (:


My first trip out since my car accident + Kaydence wanted to push me every where. I love her.



Other exciting news is that I finally got a new kitty. His name is Gregory (I didn't pick it, Dillion did. It just grew on me.) He was a stray that a friend found and couldn't keep. Now, he's became my little cuddle bug. I hadn't had him for very long before my accident, though. He is currently staying with my sister and he has gotten so fat. He goes to be fixed tomorrow and get his shots. (: I'm a bit scared for him.
My baby, Gregory. The first night I brought him home. <3

When he first visted me in the hospital.


I know this is a lot of catching up I had to do, but I am so glad I finally got to write. I keep my facebook and twitter updated a lot. Lately, my twitter has been full of lyrics (esp. Go Radio!) but it's the best way to keep in contact! i love you all. Thanks for reading!


Please tell me about how life has been for you!
Twitter- @heysabrina_
Facebook- Sabrina Dellinger.

11 comments :

  1. Love you Brina, hang in there and you will be up shaking your booty in no time.

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  2. Despite all that you are still a very lucky one! I think SOMEONE UP THERE is definitely looking out for you, especially since you got into the accident when you avoided to hit another living being. You have my support as you start on your path to recovery. Stay strong!

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    1. Thank You so much! Your support is wonderful.

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  3. You are a amazing woman... :)

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  4. I'm a newer reader and didn't even realize you were injured until your newest post. So I'm really glad you posted this. It's truly inspiring that you are able to be so positive throughout all of this. You are so lucky to have lived through it and I can't imagine the daily struggles you encounter (ref: your newest post). I hope that each day brings you closer to walking or whatever it is you want. I am so glad you are open about your life/accident. This is very rare for people on the internet. Sending you all my blessings!

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    1. awh, well I'm glad to have you as a reader. I've been reading your blog for a while now. (:

      Thanks so much for taking the time to read this though. I really appreciate it. I think God gave me a gift of speaking and it's coming in handy now. Sometimes I feel I may be too open about things but at the same time, I want to educate others because I had no idea about any of this before my wreck.

      Thanks again.

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  5. Just came across your blog from BBN.
    I admire your strength and courage , you seem like such a lovely girl with a beautiful personality! Wishing you all the best for a healthy strong recovery. Take Care and keep smiling!
    Brish
    www.keytonutrition.blogspot.co.uk

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  6. Sabrina, I just read this. I'm so sorry to hear about your accident. I applaud you for being courageous enough to tell your story. We are not here to judge you. We are here to be your friend and support you. All to many times I try to over correct to miss an animal--it's in my nature too. I love animals and I care too much about them to not try to swerve. Don't worry, this is a great community that you can be comfy enough to tell us your story and we will open our arms to you. And if you ever need an extra hug, grab your kitty and cuddle away:)
    Ginny :)

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  7. I don't think I have cried this hard in a very. very. long time. Thank your for your sharing your story - this is absolutely moving.

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  8. Thank you for reading it and allowing me to share. all things happen for a reason and I am so beyond blessed.

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