be freakin' happy.

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I hate logging online anymore. I'm sick of seeing people complaining about the smallest things. Your feet hurt from working all day? Be thankful you can stand  or that you have feeling in your legs + be thankful you have a job. You can't get a boyfriend/girlfriend? Be thankful you woke up today. That's all my timeline is...people complaining about something.. STOP FOCUSING ON THE SAD STUFF IN LIFE AND BE FREAKIN' HAPPY...

A few nights ago, I had a bad day where I got really upset at myself for putting myself in the position I'm in now. I just cried and felt sorry for myself. I want so badly to have my legs working again but I'm not doing anything by sitting here feeling sorry for myself. I hate that I took my legs for granted and now I want them back so bad. I would KILL to be able to stand all day at work. I would love to know what soft carpet feels like again on my feet..

but i'm not complaing ..

and this isn't about feeling sorry for me or my situation, no. because I have been blessed to be in the spot I'm in now.

However, I've spent the last 9 months (almost 10 now) regretting the fact that I didn't take my body more seriously. I never realized how important it was to have my lower half or to be in control of my body. I have spent the last nine months wishing I could go back in time + have my ability to walk, to stand, to be able to control my body again.  I am living in regret and not focusing on what I should be thankful for.

Someone out there is wishing they had a life like mine (or yours). I'm loved, so very loved by so many people. I'm healthy (for the most part) + I have a warm house to come home to. I have my upper body + control over my arms. Do you know how many other people in the world right now are just wishing they had those things? A lot of people are. They would give up anything to have a house to come home too, a family that loves them or control over their arms.. and here I am doing taking those things for granted. If I woke up + didn't have those things, I know I would regret not taking them seriously when I had them.. 

now is the time to be thankful for what I do have instead of focusing on what I don't have + what I miss.

 I can't keep sitting here wishing I had my ability to walk back, because let's be honest that may NEVER come. I have to be thankful for what I do have.

All I'm asking is that you realize what you have in life + focus on that. Stop focusing on the negative things in life. Bad things are going to come your way, you're going to have bad days + wish that you had something you don't have.. but you have to realize and be happy for what you do have.. 

There is beauty in sinking ships.

Remember that when you're going through a rough time.